Tell me what it feels like when you make a person with more heart and more brains than you, miserable.
Tell me what it feels like when you deprive someone else for making friends and talk to people, just because your stupid insecurity doesn't allow you to bear other's happiness.
Tell me what it feels like when you play games with other's emotions, when you have the power to make people feel sad, angry, worried, scared or miserable. Tell me what it feels when your stupid arrogance makes you feel like having the power over other's self esteem. Tell me what it feels like when you make others live scared.
It must feel so cool, isn't it? But just for you. Because for all those who receive all your crap, it's hell. For all those who just wanted to be friends with you, for that special someone who wanted to give you its heart, for a good reason. Do you think many people would find it awesome? Not everyone.
Do you think people are pathetic because YOU make fun of them? That's even more pathetic. But if it was pathetic enough, everything would be different to me. I wouldn't need to be that careful anytime I want to express myself. I wouldn't need to bite my tongue and hold my breath. I wouldn't need to talk so softly.
I know I've been complaining too much on my latest journal about the same old things, and who cares? Who cares about that guy and all the problems I had because of him? Of course, I never meant to be offensive, and I'm still feeling bad about it. I know I shouldn't try to justify what I said about THOSE PEOPLE in particular (all you know I never mentioned anyone in especial inside DA). I still want to believe that there are still good men and good women in the world, of course. Maybe the problem doesn't come from only one side. It not only included them, we both were as guilty as those possible "rivals".
But I know I'm just wasting precious time complaining about past. I think i shouldn't submit a new journal entry every time I speak my mind. To be truthful, I hate to express or say something about my life and make others think that I just want to make people feel sorry for me. I'm not even uploading new photos.
But no, I'm not even talking about anyone in especial, this time it's more general. Of course, I'm not the only one who have been through something like this.